What am I to do
In the end I only want to know you’re safe
So precious to lose
Impossible to hold when you are worlds away
A thousand thoughts of you
Honestly, I’m a bit lost for words right now and at the risk of sounding slightly deranged, this is how I found this song:
One of the first things I do almost every morning is listen to Spotify. I listened to it so much that last year, I racked up over 124,000 of listening time on there. I don’t think I even spend that much time with PEOPLE. Anyways, I found a bunch of amazing music last night so this morning, I started playing from the top of my liked songs and once all the tracks were played, I’d start over at the top. I did this over and over again, throughout the course of a few hours as I wrote my other post about music copyright laws.
I left my room for a little bit, and came back to two things: news that it was time to say goodbye to a friend who had been in ICU for the past two days. As I took in the news, I noticed a melody playing in the background. I had no idea what the song was so I clicked on my Spotify.
Guardian, by trance heavyweights Paul van Dyk and Aly & Fila. The weird thing was, this song wasn’t saved in my Spotify. I have no idea why it started playing. Maybe I had actually been playing off a playlist that had ended and was now playing suggested songs? I did a quick scan of the playlists I had. I wasn’t on any of them. Anyways, I have no idea what happened or didn’t happen. Regardless, the song’s melody embodied a heaviness that mirrored the one that was starting to sink into my head.
A few hours passed. I looked the song up again and found several mixes. I chose the Sunset mix since it felt better suited to what I was feeling.